Why Don't I Like CNY?

Just had a prelude to the up and coming Chinese lunar New Year.
My cousin just paid a visit while delivering some CNY snack goodies fresh from his mom's oven, and currently in my stomach. Since a few years back... I suppose around 8 years ago, I have kinda lost my enthusiasm for this festival.
I think it all strains from the weakening family tie after my paternal grandma's death. I do not have a lot of relatives to start with. Now, I do not even get to meet some of them more than once a year. Like my cousin, who is 6 years younger and whom I have not seen for more than 2 years. And he is the most recent one whom I can recall meeting. Its that bad.
After my mom left both of us in the living room to catch up. Our conversation was... short.... So what are you currently doing now? What plans do you have after this? Hows your sister?....Damn...i'm running out of questions to avoid the awkward silence. Ours was obviously a pathetic attempt to string up a conversation for the justification of us sitting down together. By this point, my cousin had finished his drink, fumbling with his straw, wondering how to get out of it all.
Luckily, the smart boy had an emergency exit line ready from the moment he stepped into the door. He has yet to buy his pants and was consulting us on where to get it at this hour.
So ten minutes ago, we looked at the clock and agreed ,"Ya...you really gota rush if u wanna stand a chance of getting your pants. Think a lot of retailers would close shop much earlier today."
As I saw him through the door, I began to wonder which one of my long-lost relative encounter would be up next. Its going to be a gruesome, lengthy first two days of CNY...