Days Without The Fix...

Having had quite a lot of drinking outings last week, someone and I had decided to stand by more self-control and abstain from any alcohol until Friday, after 6pm. The decision started on Monday and 2 days down. I'm still standing.

Today is the third day, and I can sense the withdrawal symptoms. Each time I receive an sms, regarding any drinking activity, I start to feel uneasy. Should I or should I not? For quite a few times tonight, I was torn between discipline and desire.

I have managed to contain desire, at severe cost. For one thing, my mouth seems to be constantly parched dry. I am experiencing unusual impatience and frustration at my inability to switch between the 3 chords fluidly. A few times, I almost contemplated breaking the guitar or one of the strings. I am feeling empty inside and yet I'm not even thinking of who to date next.

Two more days.... Oh Lord, give me strength.